Not me either. I'm at the store unshowered in dirty running shoes, hairy legs, smelly pits, ripped tank top a raggy ponytail and no make-up. That is typical for me:-))
It's just a spicy smell. Not really that bad actually. I probably should be careful with that. It does get my husband all hot and bothered. I'm not trying to get that kInd of attention:-/
You know something? the smell you think you have is not what other ones perceive you know? our own smell always is more familiar to us. I do notice smells, I may be picky about it actually ..... they sell soap without soap :/ like that you won't lose your natural smell but won't be that acid either
Well, I'm all clean and smell like coconuts now... Even shaved my legs and pitts:-) I like to feel the fresh feeling when I get ready to go out. And sometimes a rare comment from a friend like "Wow! You clean up good!" sometimes I need that:-/
expensive dresses, we don't have that here but I watched that is very traditional for northamericans, also the girls for the tutorials make special tutorials about it :) is not there when they star drinking and lose virginity? lol
No fake eyelashes in this family. Not necessary;-) and I pick them up at midnight, they gladly want to go home, so they can get up and drive to the beach tomorrow.
either we have that culture of university like saving money for it since you are a child, we really don't. But I always loved that about living far from the parents and sharing your bedroom with others ^.^ but the year I was in London I did live with more people in the house, it is an experience.
we used to get those kind of prom dresses for New Years Eve ?? but I gave up, too much strees for such an important night then you don't have that fun :/
I am editing the "Empty Vee" card, gonna keep it -.- there must be something special about someone to be in those cards anyway .... let's see the positive side ^.^
We got home at 2am, and they all had fun. Each of them slept in the car and looked forward to home. I'm having a lazy morning but getting up soon to begin my day. At least I finished my book finally "Heaven is For Real" it has that picture of Jesus by Akiane Kramarik
It is a pitty I couldn't show you my picture, yesterday I was in my room, as usual :( .... and looked at the picture I made and said yeaaaaaaahh that is it!, it has the same design structure and the colors, so the mix of all basic colors give you the black on the side ^_^
really? then must be a nice book!!! :D That is my official picture of Jesus, see? I can assure she wouldn't paint him into any cross .... Jesus wouldn't like that for sure. I will place it on a nice frame for my room ^_^ Will check that book. Did you like it?
Thank you for the card. I don't really know what to do with a card like that? Or how it relates to me? I'm not big on the media. I think they can be a bunch of vultures. So much gets sensationalized.
The book was a good story, based on a true experience. My friend gave it to me since I had to deal with so much death recently. I started it a few months ago, but set it aside. So it's good to finish it.
We have lots of cherries on our tree, but the birds are eating them even before they are ripe. We will be lucky if they leave us any. Now a grey squirrel is fighting with the blue jays over them. It's funny, and our cats just look at the birds from the ground. They don't even scare them:)
Well, I had written a huge, long commentary on the media via my cell phone, but it is all lost now, so I might try to do it again later. I want to go outside and work in my yard. I have a party to put on next weekend:~) Have a nice day!
I don't think about the media, it is more like the media thinks about me if that makes any sense, very disturbing ..... Which party? barbies on the pool? XD hahahahhaa
That's just it. The media is just filled with vultures and fabricators all for sensationalism. I don't like to watch or read the media unless for a specific purpose that I evaluate carefully. I just know that every day there is murder, child abuse, thievery, fires, natural disasters, political mayhem, starving children.. And I wrote a whole big long thing on that which I thought was really good, but since it got deleted.. I just don't have time to rewrite it now.. Maybe later. In relation to the article that caught my eye today.. Because hubs reads the paper and leaves it all over the bed.. There are now 300,000 starving children in Africa in a wealthy area and during good times.. The root of the problem is thousands of years old and it is not happening because Americans are greedy and waste all the food. That is definitely not the problem! I am so freaking sick of it!! You cannot tell me that a human being no matter what conditions they live in can't fucking figure out that they cannot feed themselves let alone bring a child into the world for a few seconds of joy.. Only to watch it suffer and cry itself to death. I would have learned by five years old that I will never have sex if that is the reality. And I did make that decision in my life when I knew I could not care for a child, just by observing others raising a child. I like to assume that all people have rational minds and hearts that care about a child's potential suffering.
you know the 5-6 of June Venus will cross the Sun?? can't make an eclipse so is not big enough :/ lol poor little Venus .... make a party about it!!! :D
I'm not an always happy person either. I'm melancholic, choleric anything you want to call it, but I can bounce between emotions. I don't cling to the negative emotions, thinking I'm gonna be able to make change that way. There is so much beyond my control. I can smile again when I remember there is a balance in the Universe and a purpose in all things.. Even if it is negative and I hate it.
The world wanted to use and wipe out this species, they don't want to dissapear ... also let me tell you, the problems caused by money you don't fix them with money. Again, there is no water in there, they have been horribly unlucky BUT when the knowdledge comes back, even without water, the sicknesses will go away which is the main thing :/ knowdledge will come. They are like scared frightened animals who are desperate to survive, they are traumatized, mentally sick you could say. I was watching this video about a spanish man who calls actual medicines "mafia" which they are of course and he grows plants, very powerful ones, the more powerful ones these medicines mafia banned them or don't aprove so they actually are healing weapons ... even like that, this man knows people who goes to places like Gambia with some herbs, very cheap ones to cure malaria, he had to come back because they could kill him any moment! also said he knew they test new medicines with people in Africa. You will see the leaders in there so fat hahaha the boyfriend I had told me so he was into politics years ago, well ... more mafia obviously .... you know how they are ... and told me other countries like north americans pay these african leaders money to not to legalize marihuana for example and other things. They are and have been so poor they are totally surviving, worse than animals, killing in there is not that rare I think. When he told me this stories I was like "That is like a movie, can that really be possible?" then while in there, Africa, things like that happened to us!! then I understood he was telling the truth!!! you just give a tip everyone on the airport, get them a perfume to the girls working on the bank, blahblahblah money money ... with money you are the king in there, he had this worker in Gambia, he was making money with this boyfriend I had, he did nothing special actually just duties, driving .... what did they do? once when they come back from this little plane they used to go from Gambia to Dakar in a short time, they acused him of having cocaine!!! and that was not truth!!! just because they don't allow people to grow or go further, they will put you down easily. That is pure greed. I repeat to you, they are traumatized, they need to heal this first, they are scared, they live in tension like an animal who is gonna be eaten any second ... with or without money.
So sorry to tell you, before going help Africa I need to help myself. I can pray for the knowdledge and light go their direction, can't be easy living like that.
See? if you think about it, is everybody fault :/ is their fault, the oppressors fault, nature fault?
I also can tell you, going out of what we know for sure or not. I like reading this stories way too much, so it is said this is the 4th civilization on Earth, the last one was Atlantis and the dinosaurs before and another ...... up to you and your believings. It is said to have one specific race to one planet and on and on, then we mix up hehe ^_^, now there is a very special cocktail in here but it is not that natural ..... AND they say the race who belongs to Earth by nature it is more like a black race? maybe not exactly as the people in Africa but for good black. That is funny, because you see how this civilization works hard into going against natural things, it will be funny to have been going against a race that naturally is more apropiated for a place like pristine Earth .... mmnnnhhhh that makes me think A LOT I believe it to be truth, also .... if that will be like that, what did they do to Earth back then to have such bad luck right now?? why did they disappear that 1st civilization.
maybe, just maybe, they have something inside their souls they must fix :/ but really, to know the real real but for real history of Earth will help us very much to not to commit same mistakes. Maybe they used the power of nature and took it to the vodoo side ¿? maybe? they should learn about white magic then
It's not our fault for Africa's problems. It's the fault of any individual who is impressive and greedy and don't not see the wrong in their ways. That has not been a country of unity and togetherness. Since way before the white man arrived there. One tribe would kill, kidnapped and dominate other tribes if they could. If they had unity, they could have easily fought off the white men and avoided all that slavery for their fellow countrymen. Instead they captured and brought them to the ships for greediness and lack of humanitarianism. The white men didn't even have to enter the jungle. It was so easy!
But you know the Pygmies of the Ituri Forest are really good people. And I don't even know if these hunters and gatherers are still able to survive as they did.. But they are happy cheerful, good humanitarian people. They evaded the bad tribes by their cunning survival skills that do not involve hurting others. That's the kind that should survive and grow stronger... But noooooo.. The nasty ones have to be so lucky.
But then again I do believe there is a purpose in everything that goes beyond my understanding oftentimes. And you have a lot of knowledge about things :-) sometimes I think that the better of the genes were brought to America to develop into a different culture.. And so many of the lineages have gone on to accomplish amazing things in the world, but not those who focused on the negative and behaved as victims... They will always be victims as long as that is what they focus on. What happened was wrong and the continued racism and horrifying treatment by some white people very wrong, but the attitude of some young boys of ten years old today is not showing good character to be respected.
going to America and rap the women to have European kinda childs is a way to bring good DNA in there? I don't think so. Good DNA comes with love -.- very simple, love is the highest vibration
You know? I think Pidgy came with the parents birdies to our roof today ^.^ because those were the two turtledoves singing in there when I was taking Pidgy out, they stopped coming at the same time Pidgy left and one was in the corner that day I think Pidgy followed them .... and today they were 3 on the roof, and 1 of them should be Pidgy for sure!!! :D
When you feel like you want to hold somebody and squeeze them tight, but you want them to be free and fly higher than the sky too... What is that called?
I love Pidgy, is a lovely birdy ^.^ turtledoves are very romantic birdies and if they are romantic they must be sensitive and if they are sensitive they must be intelligent. I don't think is a coincidence doves are the sign for peace :)
to get over sex, but for real, it is called for some the supraconsciousness and after 30 minutes of an orgasm the sensation is different and they live with that feeling all the time, they don't need sex!!! maybe that is what angels feel :) they are in a constant kind of an orgasm
I can feel passion without the person near me. I think many people can. Where do you think so much poetry and music comes from... Even from unrequited love.. Maybe especially that kind?
I thought it was for the water, so when I put Pidgy first on water was very quiet but I think Pidgy knew was full of bread all around because the second time didn't like it :/ so I didn't do it again. Maybe they come from a place where they eat from over a turtle like a symbiosis team?
Why would people even pay for it from those they care less about? An orgasm is an orgasm no matter who it is with.. Feels the same. What doesn't feel the same is the way you are held before, during and after the orgasm:-)) thats when you feel the difference.
I'm definitely not an expert but I was told by an older man who considered himself an expert.. And he said when it comes down to the way it feels.. It's all the same, but the love you have can be different .. Even if none at all. So he was saying stick with the one you love, because it's the stuff beyond the sex that matters more.
You know what? I'm such a dreamer! I can imagine a romantic love so strong that nothing can keep us apart, not mentally, not physically. Like we come together and it's instant, as if no one else is in the room. We're ripping the clothes off and coming together as one, as if there is no one else around. Crazy huh?
No, it's you that don't love me. I don't criticize you like you do to me.i don't make efforts to bring you down, to make you feel bad about who you Are. I don't do that to you
it's the unicorns they have a bad influence into your masculinity XD hahahahahaha I should speak to them .... -.- what do they think this is rainbow city or whaaat?
You know? You make me feel like I am lucky anyone wants to spend time with me at all. Why should I change anything when there is nothing better than what is. Because keeping things the same makes more people happy. So what about me!!! It doesnt matter because I will make anybody miserable if I change things. Nobody likes change. I love change, but everybody else hates it. Do who cares about me? Nobody! And I am not going to love myself more by making the few who do love me, ultimately hate me because I changed things up.
I watched this documental about crystal children, like this kid probably on the book, they speak very natural about celestial and other dimensions things and this little boy was telling the daddy "Oh Mickelangelo? the one who painted the sky, he is a cool guy dad" lol he was refering to another life he had. I just think not all of them can say these things, just some of them who you could say they have been in those higher dimensions or Heaven before being born?? like a help in this times on Earth, you know? like an injection of light :) it depends on us to listen to them or not, anyway I find they are protected, magically protected so ..... I love when kids say weirdy things, I just looooove it :D
I find you are wrong and the concept you have about them is what you are and don't want to see. They have their own personality, they are very funny and peaceful, they are for sure very cool beings, like if you would go with them to have a drink you will surely have fun :) But ..... for this you must feel they even exist ;)
I don't know what it was? The first chapter really turned me off. Like she made her decision then she's all fussing about whether she made the right decision. I'm thinking you already hurt the guy, just move in now! Also the movie I thought was corny. That all seemed to be about having sex with new partners to me. And you see that is not why I want to travel by myself, but of course now that movie makes my husband think I want casual sex with strangers.
don't you like Javier Bardem, I don't know much about acting, but I do think he is good and he really tries :) he has some special character but don't think be a bad person at all
I know you don't feel comfortable talking about angels and things that you can't see, but I don't really have a problem as long as I felt something about the subject. I'll give you an example how I do it, I was reading about watching auras, everybody and almost everything has an energetic field around, even apples have one. There is an exercise to watch your own one, but I tried, I can't, it is not difficult, I am sure those kids we talk about can easily even without using the peripheral view as we should use, to watch that. Auras can be white, black, colorful, one color ...... and a few inches around your own skin, well ..... I can't get to see them, just the field around the person but without color :/ specially in a very black background it looks like when is hot and the asphalted road has that "smoke", there I can see something. Which doesn't mean unconsciously when you meet someone you are seing this just your actual eyes can't catch it :) but I trust my "intution" because I know even if I can't remember or my eyes don't get physically there, I am seeing it anyway. Well, the same with other subjects, they can be around, you can't see them, the good and the bad too ^_^ but we will leave it like that. Besides probably is too much surrounding us for a human to handle :/
I never saw an aura radiating from a person, but I've seen people who light up a room. It's been a few times that people have said to me that I was glowing. I'm not saying it was from an aura, but I'm just saying what's been said to me. Not just a "You look radiant today" or "You're so in love you're glowing" not in those contexts that this happened at all. Just times that were completely unexpected and the people saying it were acting in awe about it. It was a little embarrassing, but I never saw it myself.
I think we are all God's angels, but we are sent to Earth and given Free will.. Perhaps as a training ground to reach higher planes. It's up to us. The Holy Spirit is Freely available to us if we choose to tap into it.
Did I say angels are boring? I thought I was saying I just don't want to go to a place to meditate and do yoga all day everyday. That would be boring:-/
I didn't say you said it, you don't need to say it, I just know :/ we all have the capacity of seeing auras, just some people still do it naturally specially kids. But as I told you, even if our eyes can't see, we know .... colors with movement is light and without it is black?? maybe you can do it, you take a white paper, cloth, white background, you put your hand then you stare to the center or the hand for a minute, 3 minutes .... then with your peripheral view you should difference like a tiny glow around your hand and then a color :/ but as I told, couldn't see more than a glow .... which is energy, I know that, maybe is white? no idea. I'm not trying anymore -.-
you are more like an angel who feels is boring and then want to be bad and fails in being bad because still didn't learn to be good if that makes any sense :/ I have seen some people like that, they just can't stand the heavy weight of feeling wishy-washy and want to be bad. I find it to be a lost of time, a lack in essence, and THAT is because they don't know the coolness of being angelic, means lots of knowdledge and misschieving around really .....
you ever asked to your "angels" or inside yourself questions? like "what should I do now? some help please?" and suddenly you get an answer? or some serendipity next days like you get the info about that subject you were asking for to get you to .....? or even "Just wait" But for sure I can tell you, they guide you to the information (if you ask for it) but the rest is all us, they won't come and fix it for us, just will guide you to get there by yourself :/ For this you need to trust obviously ... actually it is not that easy because sometimes they can guide you to do things that MAKE NO SENSE
but that is it, you take it or you leave it, I find is one of our main duties as human beings and how can you trust the one is guiding you is not your mind, I mean like a negative thing? because whatever you receive is like warm, never ever scary, goes through your heart and that is an specific feeling you must learn to read. But it is also experience I do it so much that I know what is what, for people who are very mental can be harder, they can't go listening to any single little voice in their heads. It is an specific feeling :)
I tried to see the glow from staring at my hand on a white towel and I didn't, but when I closed my eyes I saw a pretty green glow and that was when I was outside in the sun. But then I tried to do the same indoors and didn't see a glow, so when I closed my eyes after staring at my hand a long time, then I saw a bright red that turned into a magenta glow.
yeah, I was thinking it could work like that, my niece too, but since we saw orange color on each other being at the same room, I am not sure is like that ..... mmmnnnhhhhh
I know I'm pathetic:~/ But you know what I think makes it hard? I am pulled in so many different directions. I'm sure it's my own fault. But it seems like there is never a way out of it. Like just with a job... I have always had multiple jobs, mainly because one job has never been enough to provide the financial need. Even when going to school I could not just focus on school, I had to figure out jobs, rent, household issues, meals, ect. Then I finally reach a place that I should be able to work one job and really focus to be so good at it...but guess what!!! No, I can't! I get pushed into situations where now I must teach at two different schools and to different grades, plus also all my family and household duties. Now I had the chance to get a new job and guess what they give me???...ok now I will be at one school, but still two different grades and split between Monday and Friday. It's like the story of my life to be all split up and not be able to focus on perfecting one thing at a time.
Like when someone tells me to do something that I don't agree with, then I just smile without a fuss and don't do it. I might have done this to my dad a lot.
BUt I was even bad at being bad, because the story my dad loves to tell was when he told me not to drive the hour on the freeway to visit my old friends in my old home town, but I did it anyway and the only way he knew was because he gave me a credit card to buy a dress for the dance. I bought the dress at the mall they had just built across the street from my old highschool. He gets the bill and wonders who charged that thing in Newark, California? But he figured it out;~/
But they also informed him of all the other days that I was absent, but those were excused because they had notes from him... He wanted to see those notes. They were all forged by me:~/
I'm trying to think of recent stuff... the worst was when I was told by my hubs that I could not go on a trip that I really wanted to go on. Then I just paid secretly for two years and never told the hubs till two weeks before the trip. I said "You don't have to buy me a birthday present because I bought my own and I won't be here anyway."
yes, I did..it was a tour. And the same kind I am going on next month. I paid slowly for this one too, but I told him this time that I'm doing it no matter what he thinks. He didn't fuss.
I like to be in my house alone, but it seems to be impossible lately and so I know the approximate two hours that hubs will come home for his lunch and I plan all my outings for that time period, even if it's just to go to the library, or sit at the park.
He knows I do this now because he makes comments about it. I told him over and over, I just want to have the house to myself. I won't do a thorough clean job if people aren't giving me a solid four hours to do it the way I want to! so I just do very little now.
So do you see, I do bad things..things I will get really chewed out for..things that will really piss people off..but I think I do them for good reasons?
Once I was in this zoo in southafrica and the lions looked so sad, very very sad, I didn't enjoy it :( you could feel for the way they were moving and looking they were depressed
Well, there was a time that I worked hard to be the best that I could be as a mother, daughter, and wife. I wasn't thinking about what I was doing, just doing everything I could that I thought was right. And what happened was everybody wanted and expected more from me, except my friends, who began making snide remarks about my perfectionism and they didn't want to spend time with me, like they couldn't measure up or something. I tried to become more giving of myself to them and build them up with compliments, visits and little surprises...but it just took everything out of me and I had a breakdown. I never saw myself as that good anyway. It just didn't make sense to me.
I do get sad to see animals in zoos, but the San Diego Wild Animal park is pretty cool. They all get lots of space to live it. The visitors have to ride on a train to see the animals..like on a safari.
It is very important to be faithful to ourselfs :) think about it, if you are not happy first how can you make yourself, kids and husband happy?? first you must satisfy yourself doing things for you, little things, but it is not that easy in this society :/
I have to run to the store now..to get something for my class tomorrow. We are going to do M&M math:~) I make baggies of M & M's for all the students then they gragh the contents of their bags and I have algebra problems and questions on probability ect.. for them to do with their results.
Ok. I'm almost home. My daughter came with me. She always wants special foods when we go to the store. She talked me into In-n-Out Burgers. I will go home to have my homemade veggie soup.
I'm thinking about that part you said earlier about the asking for help. I do ask for help and I have had answers come to me...sometimes like a burst inside of me and everything clicks. It's not so much to that extreme lately, but yes, I felt that warm feeling. And I have felt that "wait" signal too. I have to remember to ask for help.
When you ask for them they are always there, but most people forget to ask!!!!! mainly because they don't believe in them :/ well, life is already very hard, and without them, me personally I am almost no one
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Oh that is funny too! Is one of those you?
no, not me
Not me either. I'm at the store unshowered in dirty running shoes, hairy legs, smelly pits, ripped tank top a raggy ponytail and no make-up. That is typical for me:-))
don't do that
Why? I just like to be natural. You know, let the natural oils smooth the skin and hair:-)
well, smelly is not that natural, we are made of water and we get into water. Don't be smelly.
It's just a spicy smell. Not really that bad actually. I probably should be careful with that. It does get my husband all hot and bothered. I'm not trying to get that kInd of attention:-/
You know something? the smell you think you have is not what other ones perceive you know? our own smell always is more familiar to us. I do notice smells, I may be picky about it actually ..... they sell soap without soap :/ like that you won't lose your natural smell but won't be that acid either
Well, I'm all clean and smell like coconuts now... Even shaved my legs and pitts:-) I like to feel the fresh feeling when I get ready to go out. And sometimes a rare comment from a friend like "Wow! You clean up good!" sometimes I need that:-/
I don't think men should shave much, it's gay :/
a little bit to reduce if there is too much here or there, but .... I find it masculine, I like it -.-
I like men very much, they get me nuts but .... what can I do?
I love men too! And I like hair:-) see we have something in common.
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I like men so much that when I fall in love my butterflies have butterflies inside their butterflies XD lol
smiling things ;)http://a1.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash3/s320x320/544652_289569471118508_1985091149_n.jpg
so empty ... http://youtu.be/Kgp4fo9nxu8
I love that kind of a sunset:-)
That is a very pretty song but yah I understand.
I'm chauffeuring my daughter's prim night, wish I could share it with another:-/
"prom night"
you know what? I am still analyzing the illuminati cards :/ you didn't right? so not you ....
prom night ohhhh party party and fake eyelashes!!! :D
expensive dresses, we don't have that here but I watched that is very traditional for northamericans, also the girls for the tutorials make special tutorials about it :)
is not there when they star drinking and lose virginity? lol
what do you do when is 8am and you didn't sleep yet?? take a coffee!!!!! :D
No fake eyelashes in this family. Not necessary;-) and I pick them up at midnight, they gladly want to go home, so they can get up and drive to the beach tomorrow.
I have some, very difficult to apply anyway :D
either we have that culture of university like saving money for it since you are a child, we really don't. But I always loved that about living far from the parents and sharing your bedroom with others ^.^ but the year I was in London I did live with more people in the house, it is an experience.
I find most people get careers to have one, not because they are passionated about it :/
we used to get those kind of prom dresses for New Years Eve ?? but I gave up, too much strees for such an important night then you don't have that fun :/
I am editing the "Empty Vee" card, gonna keep it -.- there must be something special about someone to be in those cards anyway .... let's see the positive side ^.^
this is yours Mr. 1 1 :D
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keep it :/ it's an order .....
I have been analyzing more as I told you and then I understood :D that is why I am editing it
It's my card
We got home at 2am, and they all had fun. Each of them slept in the car and looked forward to home. I'm having a lazy morning but getting up soon to begin my day. At least I finished my book finally "Heaven is For Real" it has that picture of Jesus by Akiane Kramarik
It is a pitty I couldn't show you my picture, yesterday I was in my room, as usual :( .... and looked at the picture I made and said yeaaaaaaahh that is it!, it has the same design structure and the colors, so the mix of all basic colors give you the black on the side ^_^
ok too much info for you Sir
really? then must be a nice book!!! :D
That is my official picture of Jesus, see? I can assure she wouldn't paint him into any cross .... Jesus wouldn't like that for sure. I will place it on a nice frame for my room ^_^
Will check that book. Did you like it?
I could get the pdf on the internet :) that is good .... so you buy it if you want to help them, very picky about those things .....
we are so opposites hahahahaha XD
Thank you for the card. I don't really know what to do with a card like that? Or how it relates to me? I'm not big on the media. I think they can be a bunch of vultures. So much gets sensationalized.
The book was a good story, based on a true experience. My friend gave it to me since I had to deal with so much death recently. I started it a few months ago, but set it aside. So it's good to finish it.
We have lots of cherries on our tree, but the birds are eating them even before they are ripe. We will be lucky if they leave us any. Now a grey squirrel is fighting with the blue jays over them. It's funny, and our cats just look at the birds from the ground. They don't even scare them:)
Well, I had written a huge, long commentary on the media via my cell phone, but it is all lost now, so I might try to do it again later. I want to go outside and work in my yard. I have a party to put on next weekend:~) Have a nice day!
I don't think about the media, it is more like the media thinks about me if that makes any sense, very disturbing .....
Which party? barbies on the pool? XD hahahahhaa
you won't fool me!!!! hahahahahaha
that is why you have the money to have fun!!!! :D yeaahhh
I like smiling, but I am much melancholic of a person to be always smiling ..... I miss something since I was born :( you don't understand
That's just it. The media is just filled with vultures and fabricators all for sensationalism. I don't like to watch or read the media unless for a specific purpose that I evaluate carefully. I just know that every day there is murder, child abuse, thievery, fires, natural disasters, political mayhem, starving children.. And I wrote a whole big long thing on that which I thought was really good, but since it got deleted.. I just don't have time to rewrite it now.. Maybe later. In relation to the article that caught my eye today.. Because hubs reads the paper and leaves it all over the bed.. There are now 300,000 starving children in Africa in a wealthy area and during good times.. The root of the problem is thousands of years old and it is not happening because Americans are greedy and waste all the food. That is definitely not the problem! I am so freaking sick of it!! You cannot tell me that a human being no matter what conditions they live in can't fucking figure out that they cannot feed themselves let alone bring a child into the world for a few seconds of joy.. Only to watch it suffer and cry itself to death. I would have learned by five years old that I will never have sex if that is the reality. And I did make that decision in my life when I knew I could not care for a child, just by observing others raising a child. I like to assume that all people have rational minds and hearts that care about a child's potential suffering.
you know the 5-6 of June Venus will cross the Sun?? can't make an eclipse so is not big enough :/ lol poor little Venus ....
make a party about it!!! :D
I'm not an always happy person either. I'm melancholic, choleric anything you want to call it, but I can bounce between emotions. I don't cling to the negative emotions, thinking I'm gonna be able to make change that way. There is so much beyond my control. I can smile again when I remember there is a balance in the Universe and a purpose in all things.. Even if it is negative and I hate it.
The world wanted to use and wipe out this species, they don't want to dissapear ... also let me tell you, the problems caused by money you don't fix them with money.
Again, there is no water in there, they have been horribly unlucky BUT when the knowdledge comes back, even without water, the sicknesses will go away which is the main thing :/ knowdledge will come.
They are like scared frightened animals who are desperate to survive, they are traumatized, mentally sick you could say.
I was watching this video about a spanish man who calls actual medicines "mafia" which they are of course and he grows plants, very powerful ones, the more powerful ones these medicines mafia banned them or don't aprove so they actually are healing weapons ... even like that, this man knows people who goes to places like Gambia with some herbs, very cheap ones to cure malaria, he had to come back because they could kill him any moment! also said he knew they test new medicines with people in Africa. You will see the leaders in there so fat hahaha the boyfriend I had told me so he was into politics years ago, well ... more mafia obviously .... you know how they are ... and told me other countries like north americans pay these african leaders money to not to legalize marihuana for example and other things. They are and have been so poor they are totally surviving, worse than animals, killing in there is not that rare I think. When he told me this stories I was like "That is like a movie, can that really be possible?" then while in there, Africa, things like that happened to us!! then I understood he was telling the truth!!!
you just give a tip everyone on the airport, get them a perfume to the girls working on the bank, blahblahblah money money ... with money you are the king in there, he had this worker in Gambia, he was making money with this boyfriend I had, he did nothing special actually just duties, driving .... what did they do? once when they come back from this little plane they used to go from Gambia to Dakar in a short time, they acused him of having cocaine!!! and that was not truth!!! just because they don't allow people to grow or go further, they will put you down easily. That is pure greed.
I repeat to you, they are traumatized, they need to heal this first, they are scared, they live in tension like an animal who is gonna be eaten any second ... with or without money.
So sorry to tell you, before going help Africa I need to help myself. I can pray for the knowdledge and light go their direction, can't be easy living like that.
See? if you think about it, is everybody fault :/ is their fault, the oppressors fault, nature fault?
I also can tell you, going out of what we know for sure or not. I like reading this stories way too much, so it is said this is the 4th civilization on Earth, the last one was Atlantis and the dinosaurs before and another ...... up to you and your believings. It is said to have one specific race to one planet and on and on, then we mix up hehe ^_^, now there is a very special cocktail in here but it is not that natural ..... AND they say the race who belongs to Earth by nature it is more like a black race? maybe not exactly as the people in Africa but for good black. That is funny, because you see how this civilization works hard into going against natural things, it will be funny to have been going against a race that naturally is more apropiated for a place like pristine Earth .... mmnnnhhhh that makes me think A LOT
I believe it to be truth, also .... if that will be like that, what did they do to Earth back then to have such bad luck right now?? why did they disappear that 1st civilization.
But it is a theory ;)
maybe, just maybe, they have something inside their souls they must fix :/ but really, to know the real real but for real history of Earth will help us very much to not to commit same mistakes. Maybe they used the power of nature and took it to the vodoo side ¿? maybe?
they should learn about white magic then
It's not our fault for Africa's problems. It's the fault of any individual who is impressive and greedy and don't not see the wrong in their ways. That has not been a country of unity and togetherness. Since way before the white man arrived there. One tribe would kill, kidnapped and dominate other tribes if they could. If they had unity, they could have easily fought off the white men and avoided all that slavery for their fellow countrymen. Instead they captured and brought them to the ships for greediness and lack of humanitarianism. The white men didn't even have to enter the jungle. It was so easy!
But you know the Pygmies of the Ituri Forest are really good people. And I don't even know if these hunters and gatherers are still able to survive as they did.. But they are happy cheerful, good humanitarian people. They evaded the bad tribes by their cunning survival skills that do not involve hurting others. That's the kind that should survive and grow stronger... But noooooo.. The nasty ones have to be so lucky.
I meant "oppressive" not "impressive"
But then again I do believe there is a purpose in everything that goes beyond my understanding oftentimes. And you have a lot of knowledge about things :-) sometimes I think that the better of the genes were brought to America to develop into a different culture.. And so many of the lineages have gone on to accomplish amazing things in the world, but not those who focused on the negative and behaved as victims... They will always be victims as long as that is what they focus on. What happened was wrong and the continued racism and horrifying treatment by some white people very wrong, but the attitude of some young boys of ten years old today is not showing good character to be respected.
You can just ignore me. I don't know anything.
going to America and rap the women to have European kinda childs is a way to bring good DNA in there? I don't think so. Good DNA comes with love -.- very simple, love is the highest vibration
*rape
It was just 500 years ago, that is not much for evolution
I meant "children" ugh! -.- I can't think anymore ....
I agree Love is the highest vibration.
You know? I think Pidgy came with the parents birdies to our roof today ^.^ because those were the two turtledoves singing in there when I was taking Pidgy out, they stopped coming at the same time Pidgy left and one was in the corner that day I think Pidgy followed them .... and today they were 3 on the roof, and 1 of them should be Pidgy for sure!!! :D
When you feel like you want to hold somebody and squeeze them tight, but you want them to be free and fly higher than the sky too... What is that called?
Love!! :D
I love Pidgy, is a lovely birdy ^.^ turtledoves are very romantic birdies and if they are romantic they must be sensitive and if they are sensitive they must be intelligent.
I don't think is a coincidence doves are the sign for peace :)
I thought so:-)
but for passional love you need the person close to you ...... different kinds of love :/
we didn't get over sex yet, sorry, I had to tell ya :D
you say "lovebirds", we say here "turtledoves" for the same meaning
I wonder why they are called turtle doves? I like turtles and I like doves:-)
to get over sex, but for real, it is called for some the supraconsciousness and after 30 minutes of an orgasm the sensation is different and they live with that feeling all the time, they don't need sex!!! maybe that is what angels feel :) they are in a constant kind of an orgasm
I can feel passion without the person near me. I think many people can. Where do you think so much poetry and music comes from... Even from unrequited love.. Maybe especially that kind?
I thought it was for the water, so when I put Pidgy first on water was very quiet but I think Pidgy knew was full of bread all around because the second time didn't like it :/ so I didn't do it again. Maybe they come from a place where they eat from over a turtle like a symbiosis team?
without sex, touching themselfs then .... they get crazy >.> lol
As much as I like what you can't see, I need the meat Sir ....
:D
But the meat you can get from anybody.. Even just acted out.. The physical means very little. Since anyone can make you feel physically the same.
weeeeell ..... lol the same the same ?
Why would people even pay for it from those they care less about? An orgasm is an orgasm no matter who it is with.. Feels the same. What doesn't feel the same is the way you are held before, during and after the orgasm:-)) thats when you feel the difference.
when you are in love with someone other peoples meat disgust you :/
I am not the expert in orgasm now, I can't tell you, but I am sure not all of them are the same or maybe you never had the best ones to know ;)
HA-HA-HA
I'm definitely not an expert but I was told by an older man who considered himself an expert.. And he said when it comes down to the way it feels.. It's all the same, but the love you have can be different .. Even if none at all. So he was saying stick with the one you love, because it's the stuff beyond the sex that matters more.
I don't think I could be with someone who can't satisfy me :/ for that you have it as a friend
"...not powerful enough, out!!!" -.-
sex is a dance of energies (lol)
I think a friend is one of the greatest things in the world!!!:-)
it is, so are good lovers -.-
You know what? I'm such a dreamer! I can imagine a romantic love so strong that nothing can keep us apart, not mentally, not physically. Like we come together and it's instant, as if no one else is in the room. We're ripping the clothes off and coming together as one, as if there is no one else around. Crazy huh?
I believe in that, you don't, so you must dream it hahaha
that is the result of being so scared, we are all scared ... but you more :/ so I can't see that happening to you any sooner ....
But I will have that with someone else haha :b
someone who believes in me
while you are there ...... masturbating with someone else as if you were alone ^_^
It's ok because it's obvious that you don't love me:-/
no, you don't love me first ...
you can always get into one of those girlie motos you drive and get over it with someone else :D
No, it's you that don't love me. I don't criticize you like you do to me.i don't make efforts to bring you down, to make you feel bad about who you Are. I don't do that to you
*pinky pixie dust all around* :D
You know, I won't discuss with you because I have nothing to fix :)
it's the unicorns they have a bad influence into your masculinity XD hahahahahaha
I should speak to them .... -.- what do they think this is rainbow city or whaaat?
they distract you :/
what about pegasus? they have wings :D
you know? a black pegasus will be good in your fantastic team ....
You know? You make me feel like I am lucky anyone wants to spend time with me at all. Why should I change anything when there is nothing better than what is. Because keeping things the same makes more people happy. So what about me!!! It doesnt matter because I will make anybody miserable if I change things. Nobody likes change. I love change, but everybody else hates it. Do who cares about me? Nobody! And I am not going to love myself more by making the few who do love me, ultimately hate me because I changed things up.
If there is anything better, keep like that :)
And it's not really more about there is nothing better... It's more about "why hurt people? And for what??!"
I am checking that Heaven is Real, but the parts where they little boy speaks :)
So I can take you to Greece with me and you can tell me what a horribly rotten person I am and how you are so much wiser than me?
I'm going to Greece by myself and not to have casual sex with men, like that stupid book and movie.
I love myself and my own company. I don't need anyone to entertain me. One day it will all make sense.
why are you angry now?
I don't know:-)
I watched this documental about crystal children, like this kid probably on the book, they speak very natural about celestial and other dimensions things and this little boy was telling the daddy "Oh Mickelangelo? the one who painted the sky, he is a cool guy dad" lol he was refering to another life he had. I just think not all of them can say these things, just some of them who you could say they have been in those higher dimensions or Heaven before being born?? like a help in this times on Earth, you know? like an injection of light :) it depends on us to listen to them or not, anyway I find they are protected, magically protected so .....
I love when kids say weirdy things, I just looooove it :D
you think I am wise? not much ..... I am more like intuitive and wild don't you think?
the way I act you couldn't say is wise but I just feel it this way and I am faithful to myself :)
I love what kids say, because you know it's just real. They aren't thinking of "what gain will I get from saying this?"
ok I finished, but I didn't read everything ... just what the boy was saying :)
he talks about angels with swords, I still don't know why you think angels are boring beings :/
I find you are wrong and the concept you have about them is what you are and don't want to see. They have their own personality, they are very funny and peaceful, they are for sure very cool beings, like if you would go with them to have a drink you will surely have fun :)
But ..... for this you must feel they even exist ;)
those are the ones with the supraconciousness -.- like that I would have fun too any place ......
why do you hate that book so much? you don't want to end up alone, don't you? :/ you find she is a fool
you hate any actors in there maybe?
I don't know what it was? The first chapter really turned me off. Like she made her decision then she's all fussing about whether she made the right decision. I'm thinking you already hurt the guy, just move in now!
Also the movie I thought was corny. That all seemed to be about having sex with new partners to me.
And you see that is not why I want to travel by myself, but of course now that movie makes my husband think I want casual sex with strangers.
but she divorced that guy on the film I think .... you should really think about peeing over that husband of yours -.-
don't you like Javier Bardem, I don't know much about acting, but I do think he is good and he really tries :) he has some special character but don't think be a bad person at all
I go to sleep now :)
Ok is that the guy she has relations with? Well, you sleep well. I'll think about stuff.;-)
I think it is but not like an affair like that, maybe they end up together?
I know you don't feel comfortable talking about angels and things that you can't see, but I don't really have a problem as long as I felt something about the subject. I'll give you an example how I do it, I was reading about watching auras, everybody and almost everything has an energetic field around, even apples have one. There is an exercise to watch your own one, but I tried, I can't, it is not difficult, I am sure those kids we talk about can easily even without using the peripheral view as we should use, to watch that. Auras can be white, black, colorful, one color ...... and a few inches around your own skin, well ..... I can't get to see them, just the field around the person but without color :/ specially in a very black background it looks like when is hot and the asphalted road has that "smoke", there I can see something. Which doesn't mean unconsciously when you meet someone you are seing this just your actual eyes can't catch it :) but I trust my "intution" because I know even if I can't remember or my eyes don't get physically there, I am seeing it anyway. Well, the same with other subjects, they can be around, you can't see them, the good and the bad too ^_^ but we will leave it like that. Besides probably is too much surrounding us for a human to handle :/
I do believe in angels. I always have:-)
I never saw an aura radiating from a person, but I've seen people who light up a room. It's been a few times that people have said to me that I was glowing. I'm not saying it was from an aura, but I'm just saying what's been said to me. Not just a "You look radiant today" or "You're so in love you're glowing" not in those contexts that this happened at all. Just times that were completely unexpected and the people saying it were acting in awe about it. It was a little embarrassing, but I never saw it myself.
I think we are all God's angels, but we are sent to Earth and given Free will.. Perhaps as a training ground to reach higher planes. It's up to us. The Holy Spirit is Freely available to us if we choose to tap into it.
Did I say angels are boring? I thought I was saying I just don't want to go to a place to meditate and do yoga all day everyday. That would be boring:-/
I didn't say you said it, you don't need to say it, I just know :/
we all have the capacity of seeing auras, just some people still do it naturally specially kids. But as I told you, even if our eyes can't see, we know .... colors with movement is light and without it is black??
maybe you can do it, you take a white paper, cloth, white background, you put your hand then you stare to the center or the hand for a minute, 3 minutes .... then with your peripheral view you should difference like a tiny glow around your hand and then a color :/
but as I told, couldn't see more than a glow .... which is energy, I know that, maybe is white? no idea. I'm not trying anymore -.-
it makes no difference really, it's just for fun :)
I don't think we are all angelic beings in here, some are, not all ...
I am, for example, more like a warrior than an angel :/ maybe both?
Ok I'll try it for fun;~)
So maybe an "Angelic Warrior?"
you are more like an angel who feels is boring and then want to be bad and fails in being bad because still didn't learn to be good if that makes any sense :/ I have seen some people like that, they just can't stand the heavy weight of feeling wishy-washy and want to be bad.
I find it to be a lost of time, a lack in essence, and THAT is because they don't know the coolness of being angelic, means lots of knowdledge and misschieving around really .....
you really don't know who you are
you ever asked to your "angels" or inside yourself questions? like "what should I do now? some help please?" and suddenly you get an answer? or some serendipity next days like you get the info about that subject you were asking for to get you to .....? or even "Just wait"
But for sure I can tell you, they guide you to the information (if you ask for it) but the rest is all us, they won't come and fix it for us, just will guide you to get there by yourself :/
For this you need to trust obviously ... actually it is not that easy because sometimes they can guide you to do things that MAKE NO SENSE
but that is it, you take it or you leave it, I find is one of our main duties as human beings
and how can you trust the one is guiding you is not your mind, I mean like a negative thing? because whatever you receive is like warm, never ever scary, goes through your heart and that is an specific feeling you must learn to read. But it is also experience I do it so much that I know what is what, for people who are very mental can be harder, they can't go listening to any single little voice in their heads.
It is an specific feeling :)
You are not good at being bad :/ I am much better
you are pathetic -.-
I tried to see the glow from staring at my hand on a white towel and I didn't, but when I closed my eyes I saw a pretty green glow and that was when I was outside in the sun. But then I tried to do the same indoors and didn't see a glow, so when I closed my eyes after staring at my hand a long time, then I saw a bright red that turned into a magenta glow.
yeah, I was thinking it could work like that, my niece too, but since we saw orange color on each other being at the same room, I am not sure is like that ..... mmmnnnhhhhh
I thought about it and yours should be like dark pink to purple -.- lol
would you imagine me staring myself for a color and actually is white? lol
I know I'm pathetic:~/ But you know what I think makes it hard? I am pulled in so many different directions. I'm sure it's my own fault. But it seems like there is never a way out of it. Like just with a job... I have always had multiple jobs, mainly because one job has never been enough to provide the financial need. Even when going to school I could not just focus on school, I had to figure out jobs, rent, household issues, meals, ect. Then I finally reach a place that I should be able to work one job and really focus to be so good at it...but guess what!!! No, I can't! I get pushed into situations where now I must teach at two different schools and to different grades, plus also all my family and household duties. Now I had the chance to get a new job and guess what they give me???...ok now I will be at one school, but still two different grades and split between Monday and Friday. It's like the story of my life to be all split up and not be able to focus on perfecting one thing at a time.
I'm sure I do it to myself.
I guess when I say I'm "bad" it means I am "bad" at things...but being "bad" I used to be "bad" but in a good way, you know?
like what?
Like when someone tells me to do something that I don't agree with, then I just smile without a fuss and don't do it. I might have done this to my dad a lot.
As in when I am told that I "can't go there" I create an opportunity and go if I wanted to.
BUt I was even bad at being bad, because the story my dad loves to tell was when he told me not to drive the hour on the freeway to visit my old friends in my old home town, but I did it anyway and the only way he knew was because he gave me a credit card to buy a dress for the dance. I bought the dress at the mall they had just built across the street from my old highschool. He gets the bill and wonders who charged that thing in Newark, California? But he figured it out;~/
I also cut school in order to do it at a time that he might not notice, but he got a call from the school.
lol
But they also informed him of all the other days that I was absent, but those were excused because they had notes from him... He wanted to see those notes. They were all forged by me:~/
I used to lie but nobody caught me ever I think .... but I didn't feel good with myself
I'm trying to think of recent stuff... the worst was when I was told by my hubs that I could not go on a trip that I really wanted to go on. Then I just paid secretly for two years and never told the hubs till two weeks before the trip. I said "You don't have to buy me a birthday present because I bought my own and I won't be here anyway."
oohhh you forger XD hahaha
you bought it 2 years in advance?
yes, I did..it was a tour. And the same kind I am going on next month. I paid slowly for this one too, but I told him this time that I'm doing it no matter what he thinks. He didn't fuss.
and then you peed over him -.-
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"Leave me ... you save yourself!!"
hihihihi
I like to be in my house alone, but it seems to be impossible lately and so I know the approximate two hours that hubs will come home for his lunch and I plan all my outings for that time period, even if it's just to go to the library, or sit at the park.
He knows I do this now because he makes comments about it. I told him over and over, I just want to have the house to myself. I won't do a thorough clean job if people aren't giving me a solid four hours to do it the way I want to! so I just do very little now.
♪ ♫ eeeevery time in my dreams .... ♪ ♫
-.-
Cute kitty!=^.^=
there, ask for your rights, you are not a cleaner :(
is a kitty-actor
So do you see, I do bad things..things I will get really chewed out for..things that will really piss people off..but I think I do them for good reasons?
http://youtu.be/LLEA1BgJ6YQ lol
for your own good, but you are not good at being good ??
That's an amazing thing, Cat Theater! That's really fun;~)
It's not natural to be perfectly good, is it?
no is horrible!!!!! :/ it is better to be imperfect and egoist :D
he must be good with the kitties? it looks like that
Once I was in this zoo in southafrica and the lions looked so sad, very very sad, I didn't enjoy it :( you could feel for the way they were moving and looking they were depressed
Well, there was a time that I worked hard to be the best that I could be as a mother, daughter, and wife. I wasn't thinking about what I was doing, just doing everything I could that I thought was right. And what happened was everybody wanted and expected more from me, except my friends, who began making snide remarks about my perfectionism and they didn't want to spend time with me, like they couldn't measure up or something. I tried to become more giving of myself to them and build them up with compliments, visits and little surprises...but it just took everything out of me and I had a breakdown. I never saw myself as that good anyway. It just didn't make sense to me.
I do get sad to see animals in zoos, but the San Diego Wild Animal park is pretty cool. They all get lots of space to live it. The visitors have to ride on a train to see the animals..like on a safari.
I never liked the circus.
It is very important to be faithful to ourselfs :) think about it, if you are not happy first how can you make yourself, kids and husband happy?? first you must satisfy yourself doing things for you, little things, but it is not that easy in this society :/
that is very good, cages are evil :(
I never liked the circus either ...
I have to run to the store now..to get something for my class tomorrow. We are going to do M&M math:~) I make baggies of M & M's for all the students then they gragh the contents of their bags and I have algebra problems and questions on probability ect.. for them to do with their results.
oohhh
Ok. I'm almost home. My daughter came with me. She always wants special foods when we go to the store. She talked me into In-n-Out Burgers. I will go home to have my homemade veggie soup.
I'm thinking about that part you said earlier about the asking for help. I do ask for help and I have had answers come to me...sometimes like a burst inside of me and everything clicks. It's not so much to that extreme lately, but yes, I felt that warm feeling. And I have felt that "wait" signal too. I have to remember to ask for help.
When you ask for them they are always there, but most people forget to ask!!!!! mainly because they don't believe in them :/
well, life is already very hard, and without them, me personally I am almost no one
A girlfriend of mine told me many years ago that when you want to learn about something a teacher will come into your life. Must be like angels too??
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I have to run to work today. I'm getting late:-/
maybe :)
Sometimes I think I am my own teacher :/
go and work!! you have some travels to pay :D
I'm feeling like going and mess up with Robert, just for fun ... what do you think? :D
the answer hihihihi ----> http://twitter.com/#!/kremo_the_krop
she protected the account :/
aren't toys for playing or whhhhaaaat??? -.-
he? what's the difference .... ?
fun fun fun ♪ ♫
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